because I’m on a different path now. My path is all about peace and privacy.
Today, I feel good. It’s a very interesting kind of good because, amongst all the chaos, distractions, and overthinking, there’s something good about just doing things. Not going places and socializing, or sleeping or sitting—anything stagnant. It really surprised me today that just getting up to clean, constantly focusing on cleaning, putting stuff away, cooking, and just focusing on eating—these little tasks really keeps me occupied. I’m using my day today to semi-disconnect from people.
As I reach out to people, I’m starting to realize that I must re-evaluate my stance with individuals I reach out to. Life is about priorities – people, events, and things important to you will always hold priority. Those that don’t obviously won’t. Of course, I know this because I deal with life the same way. It’s okay not to be a priority in everyone’s life, as long as the people I prioritize also prioritize me. I think that’s fair.
There is something about being understanding that we need todwell further in. Being understanding means you’re nice, and good girls always finish last. It’s always the villains who have that darker side that comes off as stuck up or too much to handle yet those people usually suffer less because no one can access their time, energy, or personal life. I’m on my way down that path right now, where I don’t feel the need to overshare. Even when it comes to my intellect and intelligence, I don’t believe that everyone should have access to it. As I continue to grow wiser over time, with my experiences and the different obstacles and challenges in life, I’m starting to realize that I am ready to gatekeep every little thing about me because I’m on a different path now. My path is all about peace and privacy because what people don’t know, they can’t attack. What people don’t understand, they will confuse, and they will try to define it in a way that can either hurt or help you. So, the less you speak, the less you show and tell, the less damage or intervening they can do in general.
I value the idea of protecting myself as an individual, including my goals, my plans, and my attempts to recover any happiness that I’ve lost over time. Not only do I intend to recover happiness that may have been taken away from me, especially without my consent, but my intention is also to increase and add to my happiness. I am so excited about this journey of mine into this new era.
For now, the journey has been going well. Too well.
Toodles.
Dear Diary, 